Something simmers
Sometimes I absolutely do not care about the Internet, or web technologies, or the latest trends, or “webrities”. Sometimes I want to fully embrace my inner nerd and watch SyFy all day. Sometimes I’d rather ruminate over the ratio of cumin to thyme in a pork loin roast recipe. Sometimes I want to eat 3 apples in one sitting. Sometimes I want to worry about the specifics of my wardrobe. Sometimes I want to bag up all of my clothes and take them to the Goodwill. Sometimes (most of the time) I want to watch 80s movies with my wife for an entire weekend and let the leaves pile up in my backyard. Sometimes I want to sing. Sometimes I want to pray for 3 hours. Sometimes I want to forget about my weaknesses and my fears and my lack of polish and write reams of poems, and let all of you know everything about me. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don’t. However today, for the next few hours, I will do what’s needed of me. Today I will practice being the me that I am supposed to be, and figure out how to wrestle all of those other desires into the life of that imaginary person.